Updated: Sep 23, 2020
Story by Vanditaa Sethi
Death and failure are such scary words, yet they are always on my mind. The world is such a cruel and a selfish place, that it has become imperative to learn the art of self loving because if you reveal your real side, no matter what you will always be judged and not be liked. It is so important to always put on a mask to hide your real self.
I can say from my own experience, that nobody likes sad or depressed people. If you are sad, broken or upset - people will start running away from you. “I am there for you” is such an overused expression. It holds no value because nobody is actually there for you. I know that people hate me and this is the worst feeling in the world, because putting on a mask and spreading fake, positive energy is very tiring for me.
When I was young, I was bullied till the time the assaulter became my friend and taught me how to stand up for myself. I was no more a coward and I thought that I became a better person. But, in the process, my sense of sympathy and empathy faded away and as a result, it has left some emptiness and void inside me, for I do pretend to be strong, even though, I am sensitive and I do at times cry at night.
But to function in this world, you need to use the mask, you need to always look strong, because that is the only way you can make yourself look strong and feel loved. Just to live, you need to revamp yourself from time to time, you need to put on a mask every now and then and pretend to be happy because that’s what the whole world is looking out for and that’s how you can make yourself loved. So yes, be fake.