Updated: Sep 23
Story By: Anonymous
Both men and women come through that age when it becomes natural for them to have emotions and feelings that make them feel attracted to other people. Their mind begins exploring and the body gets to know about its hidden treasures. We call this as adolescence.
But what would happen if the mind and the body are not together in this journey? What if the mind continues weaving thoughts and fantasies but the body refuses to coordinate. This is exactly what happened to me. I was born with cerebral palsy and my limbs hardly move.
I think the mind is the greatest and most powerful sex organ in the human body. It has the power to imagine things that the body might not even be capable of doing or experiencing. I believe that most people when they experience their first bout of sexual tension would spend it masturbating. In my case, my disability made any such activity impossible for me, and since was there was absolutely no conversation about sex near me, I grew up resisting my feelings. I always told myself to not think about such things.
I ignored my sexual feelings for all my teenage years. When I was around 21 years old, I ejaculated during my sleep. It was even more disturbing and embarrassing for an adult like me who was dependent for all his needs and wants. That was when I acknowledged my emotions for the first time. Those were the days of online chat rooms. There, I found a woman who had broadcasted a message "anyone up for a role play chat". We were a perfect fit for each other because neither I wanted to meet, nor she.
There are days when I feel the need to be with someone who can make me feel special and make love to me. In the morning, I sometimes still wake up in a mess, I can't explain. I do feel bad but I have accepted myself and the fact that things are not in my control. I have begun finding solace writing erotic poetry that way my imagination I could satisfy to some extent.
The only thing I want to say to everyone is that in spite of belonging to the land of Kamasutra, we don't even talk about sex, forget about sex for people with disabilities. I think its high time, we change that.